Waiting to Hatch

rain :)

Contrary to most people, I like the rain. Ok, i really don't like the bottom of my jeans getting wet and making me cold, but other than that, I like the rain. It's refreshing and calming. And there's something about rain at my house that I think is beautiful. Right now, I'm sitting in my kitchen. From my kitchen, I can see a section of the lake, the whole pond, and the creek. Oh, and lots of trees. I think my yard is great in the sunshine too, but there's something different about the rain. Very rarely do you see sunshine hitting the ground. You can see the color from the sunshine but except for those few occasions where you can clearly see rain, you can't see the sunshine hitting the ground. Things seem infinite, like everything goes on forever because the sunshine extends. (This is kind of hard to explain, and may not make sense to anyone but me, but I'm trying.) With the rain you see it hitting the ground. Right now I see the rain bouncing off leaves, dripping in the lake, pond, and creek, causing the creek to grow, splashing on the deck, puddling up on the ground. But because I see it here, I can't see it in other places. It doesn't seem infinite. Our plot of land seems enclosed and peaceful. Like, maybe today, all my problems that extend farther than this plot of land can't touch me. I know this isn't true, but it's a soothing feeling.

Rain is also something that is very cleansing. For example, Little Car (for those of you that don't know, that's my Honda) is very nice and shiny today. All the dirt has been washed away. Water gives physical life, and right now, everything outside is getting a little bit of life. Our pond is full, and our creek is steadily flowing, which living in Spartanburg, SC (we've been experiencing a drought on and off for about the past decade) is not always a common site. I'll be honest, I've not been in the best mood the past couple of days. I'm stressed and have had to deal with situations that I don't want to deal with. But somehow, water droplets falling from the sky just make me happy.

Rain also reminds me of love. God knows that I love the rain. God knows that I am amazed by the rain. (I mean really, could you have thought up of a way to irrigate the whole earth and keep it so that humans can still for the most part function normally? I didn't think so) God knows that I needed something to remind me of love. Lately I've tried to be so logical and analytical. I've tried to make sense for people and help people make sense of things. (Which is possibly why this blog makes no sense...I have none left.) I've tried to solve things logically and it hasn't worked. People have misunderstood me because of it, and i've tried to make things right but I've just kept making them worse with my "logic." It's hurt some of my closest friendships which has devastated me. I'm pretty sure that they'll be ok, but it's sad when I can't even focus on God at church because I'm too busy trying to figure out how I'm going to fix these friendships. All that to say, God loves me. And he knew that I needed something as simple and beautiful as the rain. Isn't he amazing? That is all. Sorry it didn't make sense :)

posted by Shari @ 2:02 PM