Waiting to Hatch

So, I was really in the mood to update this thing. But I wasn't sure what to write. I was sitting here and there's a movie on tv. I can't see it, but i can hear it. The last thing I heard was, "You look...happy." I wonder how many times people look at me and they wonder whether or not I'm happy. I generally have trouble sleeping, and lately I've just had a lot of stuff on my mind. So, I'm sure that there have been times when people have wondered if I'm happy. In fact I know there have been, I've been asked multiple times what was wrong in the past couple of days. (Nothing was wrong, I was just quiet for some reason...which is unusual for me) But when I heard that remark on the tv, it made me think automatically of Proverbs 15:13. The first part of it says, "A happy heart makes the face cheerful." When I read "happy heart," I think of a heart filled with God. True happiness. And I believe that too. Many times when my faith is the strongest I look in the mirror and am pleased with myself-not because God worked some magic on me overnight but because His love is shining through me, literally.

That verse was given to me by a good friend of mine who was an amazing Christian girl. Sadly, she tragically passed away in an accident 6 months ago from Monday. After that accident, it became very hard for me to love. I had the mentality that if I stop growing closer to people, I won't have to worry about going through that pain again. But then I look at that verse. How can I be truly happy, if I don't love the people around me, God's creation. To be filled with God, I have to be filled with his love which extends to everyone. So, here's my hope. That I will be happy. And my face will be cheerful. I'm not sure if anyone is going to read this, but if someone does, know that I love you. Oh, and if you need something to cheer you up, just think of me tripping or walking into a wall. It happens a lot, and generally makes people laugh. :)

posted by Shari @ 2:02 PM