So, yea I should be in bed, but I'm still studying for Pre-Cal (even though I really don't think it's helping) and I can't sleep because I was at a coffeehouse for 2 1/2 hours tonight and when you spend that much time in that kind of environment, you consume a good bit of caffine. So anyway, I decided that I would write a blog. It will be interesting to see how this turns out considering that I've been in a bad mood for about 5 days now (and no, it's not because of biological reasons). Oh, and just to let you know/warn you/apologize, when I'm in a bad mood I tend to get really paranoid and even more sensitive than I am naturally. So, if I've been weird lately, I'm sorry.
You may ask, "why has shari been in a such a bad mood?" Well, see it's not that my mood is extremely bad, I'm not ticked off at the world or anything. I've just been less than happy for 5 days now and that's a lot for me. So now you may ask,"Why has Shari been less than happy for 5 days now?" (You're persistent.) Well, I guess I will tell you. (That is assuming that someone actually reads this thing.) Last week was Spring Break. For the most part it was really good. I had an absolute blast in Disney World and I got to hang out with some of my favorite people at Furman, Anderson, and other random places. Well, here was the difficult part. I wasn't just hanging out at Furman and Anderson, I was doing college visits. I was a "perspective." (Don't you just love when you get denoted from a proper noun to a simple noun?) Well, my visits weren't really what I had expected. And that was mainly because of what everyone else expected from me. At Furman I was intimidated. I'm not gonna lie, I love Furman, but somehow my visit didn't make me want to rush to fill out an application. So after that, I was expecting Anderson to be a breath of fresh air. I went in thinking, "People always say I'm the weirdest one in the family, maybe it would be good for me to not go to the same school that the rest of my family has gone to." Well, Anderson didn't really wow me either. I don't know, maybe it was because it felt more like a web of concoxions connections rather than a college visit.
Now I would like to say that I hope I haven't offended any of the parties mentioned. I love all dearly and you must realize that this was just how I felt on those particular days. Yea, see, I'm synical and paranoid at the same time. I told you I act weird when I've been in a bad mood.
The whole college visit thing kind of sent me into a mini-panic. All of the sudden I felt like I had to immediately figure out my lifeplan. And at the same time make it fit everyone else's plan that they had created for me. And I mean everyone, my friends, my family, Dr. Joiner, Dr. Stern, Dr. What'shisnamethaticouldn'tpronouncecorrectly. Questions started to creep into my head. What kind of grades do I need? What will my audition piece be? How much time between now and December can I really devote to perfecting another piece? What will people think of me if I'm the only one in my family that doesn't get into Furman? What if I don't know anyone at Anderson? What if I get to college and decide I'm at the wrong school? And billions of other (slightly more personal) questions were wizzing around my head. How in the world am I going to get through all this?
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:33-34
"I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." Phillipians 4:13
Isn't it interesting and sad how trying to be "prepared" can veer you straight away from God's vision?
Oh, and don't worry about me, I'll snap out of the bad mood soon enough.
Love y'all, and may God truly bless you.
I have no good words of my own to share right now, so I thought I would share some other people's...prepare, there's a lot
Gilmore Girls quotes:
Logan: Rory, you're special.
Rory: Like, "Don't eat the paste" special?
Lorelai: [on Michel] He's snarky.
Sookie: And sarcastic.
Lorelai: He's snarkastic.
Rory: Do something to make me hate you!
Lorelai: Um, go Hitler?
Grey's Anatomy:
Dr. Cristina Yang: I get angry when I go without sleep
Dr. Meredith Grey: At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines... that are way too dangerous to cross
Dr. Meredith Grey: I've heard that it's possible to grow up - I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope...
Dr. George O'Malley: I know I'm not a lot of things that you've gone for in the past - I know, but I would never leave you. I would never hurt you. And I will never stop loving you...
Dr. Meredith Grey: Pick *me*. Choose *me*. Love *me*.
Dr. Meredith Grey: Denial. It's not just a river in Egypt. It's a freakin' ocean
Dr. Addison Shepherd: I hate this freaking trailer!
Dr. Derek Shepherd: Fine then. No trout for you.
Dr. Alex Karev: For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss. Trust me, you don't want to. Cause when you find that right person for a first kiss, it's everything.
Ed:
Ed Stevens: The fact of the matter is you can't live without me.
Carol Vessey: What?
Ed Stevens: That's right you could move away to Guam, Borneo, Harrisberg Pennsylvania, anywhere, the truth is you'll be making a beeline right back to Stuckeyville. You know why?
[Carol shakes her head]
Ed Stevens: Capital "E" lower case "d"!
Phil Stubbs: Shave my poodle!
[Ed compliments Shirley's "S" on the Stuckeybowl wall]
Ed Stevens: It's very good Shirley.
Shirley Pifko: Are you coming on to me?
[Ed shows up at the high school in a suit of armor to give Carol flowers]
Warren Cheswick: This sucks! I was up all night carving Jello!
Molly Hudson: I just thought I'd spice it up a bit. I mean, why say 'Hello' when you can say 'Hellooooooooo'?
Mike Burton: Who would win in a fight - a big, strong guy or an invisible fat guy?
Shirley Pifko: Bendy straws make drinking more pleasurable.
Ed Stevens: We're circling each other like Venezuelan flamingoes engaged in a complex mating dance.
Dr. Walter Jerome: You don't get to disagree, you knuckle-dragging cretin!
Mike Burton: Hey, guys! Hey, you gotta see this! Kenny's about to stop a bowling ball with his head
Ed Stevens: It says here you went to Tufts University.
Kenny Sandusky: It's in Massachusetts.
Ed Stevens: I know... you graduated with a 3.7? And then you went to nursing school. Kenny, you're a nurse?
Kenny Sandusky: Pediatric nurse.
Ed Stevens: Why do you work in a bowling alley?
Kenny Sandusky: Life is a journey.
Carol Vessey: I can never decide if you're totally adorable or totally creepy.
Ed Stevens: Ten bucks if you call Reverend Carver "Padre".
Mike Burton: Ten bucks if you touch that guy's bald spot.
Mike Burton: Ten bucks if you order your meal in rhyme
Mike Burton: Ten bucks if you go over to that guy and ask him where the lettuce is... only, you don't say lettuce.
Ed Stevens: What do I say?
Mike Burton: Letoos
Mike Burton: I'll give you six bucks to hug the giant chicken.
Ed Stevens: Six bucks? As you know the traditional wager is ten bucks.
Mike Burton: But I've only got six.
Ed Stevens: Forget it!... Wait. I'll give you ten bucks to hug the giant chicken.
Shirley Pifko: [On her lost Mexican jumping bean] Please let me know if you see it. It looks like a regular bean, but every so often it bounces in a rather disappointing way.
Mike Burton: Can't talk. Eating fried pie. Experiencing nirvana.
Ok, so I guess those are enough for my tv quotes, hope you all have a good night!! Love y'all!
