Saturday, April 14, 2007

Tumbling

As many of you probably know, I used to be a cheerleader. I know, I'm not the typical cheerleader, but there will always be a special place in my heart for that sport (yes, it is a sport-don't get me started). I cheered for 4 years, I didn't love all of it, but I aboslutely loved tumbling. During season, usually about 20+ hours a week were devoted to cheerleading. Needless to say, it got pretty exhausting, but I always found the energy for tumbling (usually, stunting too, but that's a different story). I took tumbling lessons for 3 years, and loved it. When you first start tumbling, you use muscles in your body that you never knew you had. You lose your fear of falling on your head. You forget the fact that running at full speed only to dive into the floor is considered crazy by some people. Because it's fun, and somewhat empowering. There's something about using all your strength to make yourself fly through the air that's just exhiliarating. It was a confidence builder to know that I could do stuff that made people say "cool!" and had a blast doing it. It's also a release. My best tumbling lessons were usually when i came in angry and took it all out on that blue mat. And we worked hard. You can't be out of shape and tumble. It won't work. There's always something more to accomplish in tumbling. There's always a harder trick. But every trick you master, is like a huge confidence builder. It's hard to explain something like this to anyone who has never tumbled, but it used to be a passion of mine, so I try. So you may ask, why would someone quit if they love it so much? Well, I broke my ankle. Three days after I'd gotten my round-off back handspring back tuck. When I went back to tumbling, I tumbled crooked, favoring my good ankle. And I'd kind of gotten out of shape. Had I done a lot of physical therapy and worked really hard, I probably could have fixed these things, but I ended up quitting cheerleading for numerous reasons and there didn't seem to be a reason for tumbling anymore. I miss those days a lot, but that was almost 2 years ago now. In 9th grade, my tumbling coach told me that if I continued, I'd be able to do a full by my junior year. By my junior year, I had already stopped tumbling because of the ankle crap, but it's still cool to think about. For those of you that don't know what a full is, here's a video of it:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2K0I_z8PcyM

It's just 2 guys doing it over and over again so you really only need to watch for like 3 seconds. Anyway, I just thought of all this because I saw some cheerleading on tv so I thought I'd share with yall the good ole days of when I was a lot stronger and bouncier.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Pslam 103:8-13

"The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger abounding in love. He will not always accuse, nor will he harbour his anger forever, he does not treat us as our sins deserve or reapy us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on thsoe who fear him." - Psalm 103:8-13

To be a Christian is to desire to be Christ-like or reflect God. According to this passage that means I must be:
-compassionate
-gracious
-slow to anger
-abounding in love
-not accusing
-not harbouring anger
-not revengeful

Lately, I've been disregarding a lot of these things and greatly hurt myself and others in the process. Otherse that are wonderful people and I have no clue why they're still friends with me because of my great disregard of these guidelines. I pray that they will forgive me. More importantly, I've hurt the heart of God. My Creator and Saviour. My reason for living. I know that He will forgive me because God is perfect, gracious, and merciful. My prayer is for God to purify my heart and help me fit Psalm 103:8-13. I'm currently watching DVD's of Seesalt worship services and I just heart a song that fits me and my thoughts perfectly. The chorus goes like this:

"And I ask you how many times will you pick me up
When I keep on letting you down
And each time I will fall short of your glory
How far will forgiveness abound
And you answer 'My child I love
And as long as your seeking my face
You'll walk in the power of my daily sufficient grace"

Thank the Almighty God for grace.